Milo, my love, you are one month old already. How time flies. As I child I remember always hearing "older" people talk about how quickly children grow. So many times I overheard my grandparents talking about things that happened 20 or 40 years ago and them not believing how long ago it was. I thought they were nuts. I must be an "older" person now. Time seemed to move so slow when I was younger. Something happens after you turn 30 and again if you have children. Time speeds up. Not that there aren't days that seem to last forever sometimes, but weeks go by. The calendar pages flip past. Keely was just one and this year she will turn 5! I was just holding your
newborn body yesterday I swear, but no. Now you are a month old. You've gained over a pound and grown a little fuller, a little taller. You're growing and changing already. Your eyes have lightened a bit. Your hair looks red in the sunlight. You are such a pretty baby.
Milo, you are however, loud. Loud. Loud. Loud. Not just when you're crying, but when you are sleeping. You grunt and groan and moan repetitively and for soooo long. It sounds like something surely is wrong with you, but when you wake up, you stop. It's comical I guess, but it doesn't make for peaceful sleeping. You sleep cuddled up to me at night. Your belly against my chest. You pee all over yourself and me. We wake up soaked. I don't mind at all. Strange. A diaper just can't contain you. You love to have your face smooshed when you are tired. It helps you fall asleep. My hand half across your face or your head pressed into my body. You also like getting in the Moby wrap to fall asleep. You love to be warm and cuddled up to me and I love having you on my chest-breathing, sighing. Currently, you are alert for about an hour at a time before sleeping for 1-2 hours. At night, you want to be fed about 4 times. You aren't crying through the night much now…just the grunting.
You have the cutest yawns. Your mouth stretches so long that it hurts you. You make sweet cooing sounds and you follow our voices. You smile quite a bit, especially when Keely talks to you. You make us smile too.
It is so nice getting to know you Milo. I love knowing that when you're being still and alert that within a few minutes you will want to sleep. Soon you will turn your head towards me and nestle your head snug in my neck and fall fast asleep. I love that I know that this cry means you've had too much and want out. And that that cry means you are tired of being moved around. I've learned so much about you in these few weeks. What will the unfolding months reveal about who you will be? How lucky I am that I get to learn all about this new human being. There is such sweetness in this fleeting intimate time. We don't get very many quiet moments together Milo, but I treasure those we do have. I'm trying to take in all your baby goodness while it lasts because you too, will grow up too quickly.
December 31, 2007